I made it back alive & ok! 9.8.19

I made it back alive & ok! 9.8.19

I did it!!! WAHOOOOOOOO!!!!

I traveled alone and survived just fine!!!!

Phew.

OMG I’ve been so so worried that this was something I couldn’t do anymore.

Obviously, I’d need to stay relatively close to home, but there are so many awesome places in this area, I’m ok with that.

I don’t even know where to start. I did have my computer up there but felt like taking a few days off from writing in here.

I did yoga! I painted watercolors! I made new friends!

I ATE IN THE CAFE! TWICE.

I did not have any alcohol other than a sip of a friend’s drink. I didn’t go in the tubs except for dipping my feet in them - which made them burn and scared me off from going in again. I asked the guy managing the tubs why they were so chemical-y - since they’re technically hot springs - and he said he was dealing with a new chlorinator? And hadn’t figured out the new chemical balance (yeah, got that buddy).

I think I’ve mentioned in here how

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The magic cloth is awesome 6.10.19

The magic cloth is awesome 6.10.19

I thought I understood a broken heart.

I really did. I thought I knew what it was like to pick up millions of shards scattered around farther than I would have thought they’d fly (how does glass do that by the way? My curiosity….).

I thought I knew how deep the pain could go. When losing one person.

Not even close. To having your heart broken by an entire community.

I have no idea if anyone is reading here.

I don’t think I want to know. Easier for me right now. Though, I have accepted that eventually I’ll need to engage again. Right now, I have to just spit content out, get it out of my mind, my heart, my soul.

If it all sits inside me, it will crush me.

At the very least, the burden is being carried by others along with me, instead of just me.

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My new doctor is awesome 6.7.19

My new doctor is awesome 6.7.19

I was worried about my face so last night, I emailed my new primary care doctor who is AMAZING. When I woke up late, for me, at 9 something, I had a message that they’d put me in a 10:45 appointment. I went in, we decided I need antibiotics.

On the way out, I asked the young woman at the front desk: should I stop at the drug store on the way home? You’re so much faster here than anyone else! She said: yep, the prescription should be there.

It was.

So, I think what’s been happening is when food gets stuck in corners or twisted sections of my intestines, it creates toxins. In Chinese Medicine, when there are these types of sores on the skin, it means the toxins are trying to get out. And in my new herbal book - YES I ACTUALLY READ SOME OF IT LAST NIGHT, it happened to open to a page on detox, and strangely enough I REMEMBER WHAT IT SAID, ok probably because I read like one paragraph BUT STILL I REMEMBERED IT - it said that the skin is usually the LAST place the body likes to get rid of toxins.

I really, really wish I had time to start experimenting with herbal concoctions.

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