I went to the ballet! 4.19.19

I went to the ballet! 4.19.19

OMG I had the best night!

Awhile back, I posted on Facebook that I was looking for ballet classes for adults. I can’t do jack shit musically but I can dance and I love it. LOVE it. In fact, I get so bored with my “Movement Routine” that I do in order to digest a few eggs that I’ve added more than just modern dance to it. (Imagine having to do several hours of movement JUST to digest one meal, that’s my life.) I like twirling around like a ballerina to mix things up.

Am I any good? Meh. I wouldn’t make a complete embarrassment out of myself but I’m certainly not gifted at it. There are so few opportunities for me to ENJOY this body, that even if I make an ass out of myself dancing around the house (sorry neighbors), I do not CARE. I’ve never been this limber in my life which makes it fun.

ANYWAY, back to my fun night. An old friend saw my post about looking for ballet classes - which are probably a pipe dream at this point, I can’t get through my improv class without

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Something is not right 4.2.19

Something is not right 4.2.19

The pain was bad last night. I hate when the pain is bad throughout the night. I wake up a lot and don’t sleep well. I tried eating four eggs yesterday and it did NOT go well. That’s the first time I’ve tried to eat four eggs at in one day since before Feb 15 or thereabouts. That’s when I left for San Diego.

I thought since because I had an extra visceral massage on Sunday that maybe I could get away with it. Also, I was hungry! I was super hungry yesterday which is always a good sign. Today, no appetite. Don’t want to put anything in my stomach. I should have done two bags of IV fluids yesterday - that would have helped - but I ran out of tubing and had only one left. I wanted to save it for TODAY’S visceral massage with Caroline. We discovered that if I give myself a bag while she works on my belly then she’s able to move my tissue more easily and open things up.

Visceral massage, if you’re wondering, is when specially trained massage therapists move the intestines around by massaging the belly and the back. It can be very subtle work - they are trained to know how to “pull apart” the intestines that are sticking together most often due

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I want a new job 4.1.19

I want a new job 4.1.19

It’s been rough times around here so I gave myself a week off from the Internet. Sharing content is both rewarding and draining. When people act superior because they aren’t on social media, I inwardly cringe now.

How lucky for you that you don’t depend on social media for support and company while being home-bound!

How lucky for you that you don’t depend on social media for life-saving advice and doctor referrals!

How lucky for you that you’re able to work in the real world and not desperately finding ways to generate income from your bedroom and bathroom!

The longer this continues, the further away the able-bodied world feels. And on top of that, I’m living in the bubble of all bubbles and then another bubble again.

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