I gave myself 3 liters of fluids yesterday up until about 3/4am.
I’m giving myself one right now.
I’m dehydrating very, very quickly these days.
AND I started the fluticasone on Monday.
I’m trying not to panic. My nurses say they have patients that get 3-4 bags per day so I know you can live like that.
But what the FUUUUUUCCCCKKKKK is happening to me? Why are so many things worsening? How can I stop them from worsening better? Is it even possible to improve hydration and gut issues? Am I dreaming?
Or, do I rely on my old belief system that the body WANTS to heal, and given the right conditions and interventions, it WILL heal.
If only they hadn’t gutted me so badly. Geography and scar tissue are different beasts than inflammation or auto-immune problems. Nerve damage…
Ok, I’m not going down that road today!!
Can you feel how frenetic I was in my post yesterday? That’s partly the medication. Like I need to be jacked up at ALL. I’ve always been drawn to depressants, never stimulants. Caffeine and cocaine have never had any appeal to me.
Mellow me out, man!
(Can you tell I started my weekend already?)
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